Friday, August 26, 2005

Right and Wrong And So Many Other Things...

Ahhh Life.... this is the age of computers.... Ahhhh life, this is the age of computers. I did this play in summer school in sixth grade... it was about glitches... glitches in the system. This was before I knew anything about computers. Really, we weren't the generation for it in grade school, high school either really. The reason that popped in my head was because I was sighing about life. How wonderful and hurtful, dark and light, it can be so many things. And so much of it is how we make it for ourselves. I personally like to let things happen. Usually so much happens for a reason, that if I try to control anything / try to make something happen, or stop something from happening on my own, it never works. Everything just fly's out of whack in an instant. I am more content with life when I let go of it.
And beautiful things happen. Fireworks.... unexpected fireworks and light. Things happen that seem as though they were woven into the fabric of my tapestry. It's so fucking beautiful. It's like that cry, that really good cry that releases so many things from your soul. It's also like the cry of a ghost that was wronged, a stain in the cascade of time.... How did any one thing conjure this world to be what it is?

Monday, August 01, 2005

PRAYING MANTIS

Giving birth on my porch. Going into contractions... licking each foot tirelessly.... beautiful, she was beautiful, this dark glowing green...